12.08.06

Trusting in God’s Plan

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:43 am by Perry

I have nearly finished my study on the Trinity that I previously posted the introduction to.  Once it is editied and I complete the last chapter I will post the completion of the work on this site.

I was writing though because I wanted to briefly share my thoughts on trusting in God.  As most know, I was recently accepted into Wright State’s medical school through the early assurance program.  I truly believe that this has been a work of God not only opening doors but pushing me along in this direction.  I know he must be planning on using me with medical training in some way but as for how I don’t yet know.

I have been struggling though thinking that maybe WSU isn’t good enough for me.  I am a good enough student that I could probably get into another “higher ranked” school but in attempting to do so I would be sacrificing my guaranteed acceptance to WSU for a chance at an acceptance to another school.  In all honesty I love WSU’s medical program but I keep hearing that to do with my grades, scores, etc.. that I should apply to Johns Hopkins, Yale, Harvard… 

The issue isn’t medical school you see.  The issue is trusting in God and resting in the sufficiency he has supplied.  The Lord of hosts has worked powerfully to grant me this great honor and I am continually tempted to think it is not enough.  It is my prayer that I can cast aside these worries and doubts and trust more fully in God’s provisions.

I don’t claim to say God “spoke” to me to go this route as many people say.  Often I hear other, usually young, believers say God “speaks” to them daily and they feel God moving them to do something.  I don’t doubt that God can’t work powerfully in such ways but the closest I have come to “feeling” or having God “speak” to me is looking back to where I have come and see in retrospect where God had worked in my life.  I don’t ever remember God telling me to purue medical school but looking back I am sure that he has opened the doors and put the initiative in my heart to walk through.

At times I have questioned my salvation in light of others proclamation of their experiences of God.  On that note, I wanted to share some lyrics from a Chris Rice song off of his first CD back in the day which speaks of this and encourage me in the walk(much better if you hear the song):

Chris Rice - Smell the Color 9

I would take no for an answer,
Just to know I heard you speak,
And I’m wondering why I’ve never,
Seen the signs they claim they see,
A lotta special revelations,
Meant for everybody but me,
Maybe I don’t truly know You,
or maybe I just simply believe…

Chorus:

Cause I can sniff, I can see, and I can
count up pretty high; but these faculties
aren’t getting me any closer to the sky,
but my heart of faith keeps poundin’ so
I know I’m doin’ fine but sometimes findin
you is just like tryin to smell the color nine.
Smell the color nine…

Now I’ve never felt the presence,
But I know You’re always near,
And I’ve never heard the calling,
But somehow You’ve led me right here,
So I’m not lookin’ for burnin’ bushes,
Or some Divine graffiti to appear,
I’m just beggin You for Your wisdom,
And I believe You’re puttin’ some here…

Nine’s not a color…
and if even if it were you can’t smell a color,no
that’s my point exactly.

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